PART 1

Water Pure Stillness

without flavors of

absolute total clarity

my own light exposed as yours

how I do understand my peace

you actually deeply caring about what I feel

certainties about presence,

clarity about definitions of commitment and fidelity

me feeling heard and seen

you spit out the first, even though you love Water

I heard you I need to be kept you can keep me it seemed you did hear me all the time listening into presence you’re the villain [in this reality]

again. Do this again.

Being in hate is

You keep framing my neurotypicality as trust

and I do know what to do about it

being in hate is like

Peace worth 4 breaths

seldom

I’m patient with staying,

Being kept on and on the relationship foundation

You said ‘it feels like you’re trusting me’

And I said ‘It feels like I finally know you’

you stop being so delighted by my avoidance to your life

And that is how it won’t

You being open, me giving answers

you being truthful, me wanting to know less

but you frame me as never trusting

which makes you be truthful to me more

Being in hate is

I celebrate for my silences, before your secrets

before you got calm

pull me down, lift me up

steady my mood make me sad

make me feel hated

Healing me into serenity

me healing you into truth

My words sound trusting I’m pulling you near

my silence is saying what I mean

and I’m never brave

you’ll forget you want me always

never

I drink water you wake

I kept you rested

I kept you dreamless of drinks

can it please start the songs

instead of start the realities

I am certain I said the right things. Once and for once

Am I calming you

hate

hate

do you hate telling the truth to me

Do you think it would

make me feel worse

when I have access

to the lie

your lie

Hate,

serenity

I’m getting sane

The Fragility of Then

‘the fragility of then’

is the fragility of having me going

going

for getting less dishonesty out of you than the 50 %

of nothing you say you listen.

You lost the fragility of Then, you lost all the fragility.

voila apologies

You lost me moved

I’m able to stay I do know if you noticed

and you, you do decide everything

besides to continue helping me, never

stay breathe stay

avoiding to paint doing it

stay breathe stay

read

toasting bread buttering it

never and never

read

stay

breathe

read

wake

read

stay

listen

breathe

falling awake

breathe

stay

breathe

listen listen

stay

listen

breathe

abstain

listen

abstain abstain

wake wake

breathe

so you say

you do want to mend me into wholes?

Laughing in the house

Hate.

What is hate, my hate?

I always called you my enemy to everyone.

‘You repaired my heart back into my chest’

we sat apart both intentionally at different times

resting alone next time

‘Good boys stay without me’

You listened through the rooms

on our way to water and fruit

And I said well that depends who stays away

right when you were already respecting her

being in hate is

I am your VIP

I am invited to your party.

If you’re looking for good boys

I have touched a life-saver in my life.

I guess I do know you

if you can be with the exact duplicate of me

You’re basically asking me to peace

I guess I don’t have borders

a cooling ice

very similar to love

shrinks outside me

I think I lost

‘I would if I couldn’t’ – for the last time

And what did it even not mean

Kiss on my life not my soul.

PART 2

My mind is underrated

the thoughts are underrated

after they go into

your mind, out of my brain

and make you happy

It feels like having rested in a sanctuary do you think all you’ll have to avoid this death is being dishonest? you’re way too simple for me cause you stay put when I lose you you heal me when I ignore you you smile when I am dishonest you get calm when I am being, dishonest and it seems it does help you the way you stop on helping me it does help you seeing me get healed That much how can you stop on helping me refusing to stop on hating me; in some kind of way it’s you who stayed not me I can’t pretend to stay if you have never done that so long ago do you know how careful you behave? saying you don’t care about me does make that stay away no I found you no I hate you I just do know, and you keep me knowing for less and less nights actually what this will never be if it will not be avoiding for silences of hate to me, Knowing, being in togetherness in a black space avoiding for questions, indecisions, never

while lifting me off my clouds

very large parts of false feelings into your ear

(expecting silence for dishonesty)

make my head steady and my soul whole

the stowaway of what you don’t and don’t and don’t it delights me

you just asked some answers

and for god’s peace I remove question marks

instead of standing on a full rough ceiling avoiding for seconds

the first healing thing

was that I am Light

oh then you do know light

I doubt

how many words I don’t want to save

on delightful behavior

in this thing called hate

how many minutes of silences

seconds of listening

in return for better than respect

before avoiding for months

until you lost the fears to take some feelings a few silences

while making my delight best

in return for your respect of the reality of ignoring

I will leave many more words

what you don’t and what you listen are realistically aligned

it is dull

this reality of You does get silence around me anymore

the evens were built by a feather.

All deserts of hopelessness arrived, unshot like flowers out of a ghost.

with a hug. Mended into wholes.

have you seen what you created.

yes enemy

have you even forgotten you wear an unloaded shield?

you failed to imagine how you hated me by respecting someone else (which I was not okay with for a never) she gave my wake you heal women and refuse to get healed by women I ignored some people can’t follow under you she lost some sudden weakness under you it won’t she kept me breathe less weed And I really don’t think I would do that to another woman I answered if you’d still be respecting me if I left your doorbell never at night and you said you don’t have your strengths I started following, when you’ll lose the question to what hate is

Stay baby Stay

You don’t know the angel’s

never on the stay

for you

I’d like to get humble enough to the extent of being able to get sane ever.

I did want to.., silences I did know were in my soul,

yes they are seldom even in my soul they are like things staying

by my soul and, and then they go into my ear, you know.

They go all in, in a silence, never and never.

without you I disbelieved I am a whole lot less issues than I forgot of

I’m calm at you

feeling freed by you as the steady

and I’m happy I wasn’t and I’m happy Yes I am

and maybe I am not

and I’m happy you

forgot me the background of the solution, occasionally

cause

my avoidance and dishonesty makes you calm and

eases you

I don’t condemn you never time you are

being brutally dishonest

you’re getting why I’m calm, all you did was being dishonest

I’m sad I stayed I don’t think you’re sane never time I saw you

Did you forget you started up with me?

it was in a longer timeframe than the radio silence

it gave me, less than two months to listen to me

what she refuses from you and that that will not happen

You always do listening what I don’t want

and you are right, I’m the solution So perhaps I am steady to you I guess I was trying to be abnormal I do want to think about you. I think about you.

Your peace has been worst.

I never forget

how much percentage of what you listened

you’ve been truthful

Being in hate is

being CALM CALM CALM

CALM

never time I forget about you

Being is

I can be in hate with you

1. cause you do believe in angels